And she has left...for good...

It has been weird the last few days...I tried preparing myself mentally, and yet I couldn't...Everytime my phone receives an sms, I was worried that it's a msg from my mum telling me the bad news..but up to this morning, I never receive any msg from my mum.

I knew they are bringing her home today, Thursday morning in Penang. When I went to bed last night, I was mentally prepared to receive a sms when I wake up this morning. But I did not. So, on the bus to work, I called home to ask. I heard my mum's voice on the other side, "Lu ei 3-ee bo liou"....I didn't know what to say..but just asked if she made it home before leaving us..and mum said, "Yes, she did".."She passed away after about 10 minutes.."

I wrote a poem for her..as I really can't think of anything else which I could do. This poem would be "given" to her by my cousin on my behalf.

My dearest 3-ee,
Am really sad that you've left us,
That I couldn't bid farewell,
That I couldn't remember the last we spoke,
Or the last time I held you close.

I would truly like you to know,
That you will always be remembered,
As the aunt who brought me up,
Whom I shared my secrets with,
Whom I laughed and cried with,
Whom I've loved and will always do.

You will be missed dearly,
Today and every day to come,
In my heart, I will always love you,
For you are my one and only 3-ee.

Rest in peace.

With love, Ah Na.

I can't exactly describe the feeling I am feeling right now..it's a mixture of everything..:( I hope she is in a better place..a place where she is not hurting or in pain anymore...

The sunshine..the blooming flowers..O so pretty..

A month has passed by once again...One month and lots had happened, so I can't really complain...

I attended a very good friend's wedding in a land they call Down Under..:p It's a trip planned since many months ago...and is finally over. I spent 2 weeks with my very good friends in Brisbane, Melbourne and Perth...just being us..driving around..and catching up...It's not an easy trip, very exhausting..but fulfilling...

So, about the wedding...Yeah, primarily the trip is for Deanna, the bride. She asked me to be her bridesmaid even before I have the idea of coming to London and I kept my promise. It was quite an adventure for all of us to plan the bridesmaids' gowns and etc because the 3 of us are at 3 different continent! The bride, myself and the other bridesmaid..but we made it!! The wedding would be the first wedding of a very close friend which I have attended so far. It's was very touching..she had hers very personal, only with those who truly care...from the ceremony to the reception, everything was well planned and pretty. ooo...I have to share these 2 quotes which I learnt from my trip.

1. "LOVE IS A DECISION."

2. From the groom's dad to the groom. "When you are wrong, just admit it. When you are right,
just shut up."

After the Australia trip, I came back to London. WOW...What a change in 2 weeks..the day is so much longer now.., weather is good despite the rain and the blooming flowers! It's good to be home. :) After about 9 days, I left again to Amsterdam. Amsterdam is very eye-opening. I managed to visit the House of Anne Frank, Keukenhof garden and well the famous red light district. The coffee shops and the sex toys are ..just totally in a category on its own. And yeah..I had a "vanilla muffin" which didn't quite give me anything else other than blood shot eyes. Out of my 3 days trip, I managed to go to Leiden and also Rotterdam for a day. Leiden is boring while Rotterdam is just another city with skyscrapers.

Oh well, back to work. Times are really bad here..every sector are affected by the credit crunch. I also kinda lost my chinese takeaway job cos they are having very quiet times and don't really need an extra hand. sighhhh...

Anyway, here are some pics..I have uploaded more in my facebook.

At Keukenhof...

The red light district..

With the bride and groom...

At Cottlestoe sunset..supposed to be one of the best in the world..

At the 12 Apostles...

Since last update...

It's been tougher and tougher for me to find the time to write, to rest or just being...I guess that's cos I have to juggle 3 to 4 jobs in a week...which could sometimes means waking up at 4.40am and work till 10.30pm. Yeah..I work hard...but I also intend to play hard..I deserve every single penny that I earn...Every week must do "something"..anything really..whether it's a theatre, a movie or a trip or even clubbing...

Since my last update, lots have happened. I went to Eastbourne for a day trip with 4 other friends. It was my first road trip and my first visit to the English Channel. Eastbourne is like one of my friends said, "It's like a town stucked in time!" She is right...everything seems extra slow there..people walk at a slower pace..nothing seems to be in rush..which is really good for me. It really reminded me of the joy of simple living...almost 360 degree as compared to life in London. There is nothing much in Eastbourne, but the visit to Beachy Head for the Seven Sisters is well worth the journey! I was truly amazed by the wonders of nature when I was standing there, feeling the chilly breeze brushing my cheeks with the towering white cliffs and sound of the wave hitting the endless stoney beach...I felt so small as a human and humbled by the grandeur of the natural world. Neither the highest building nor the biggest man-made pool can ever give u the same feeling...

So, I also finally made a trip to Richmond..It's just about 30 minutes from London zone 1 but it's soooo different..in a good way. I wished it didn't rain that day though, which has certainly made my trip much shorter than intended. Liked what I saw for the brief few hours I was there, just walking with Chew Ping and Eow..so, will definitely make another trip there ..hopefully better luck in weather next time.

I also had my first big screen cinematic experience for the 1st time in London in the last 8 months. There was a double bill promotion in Riverside Studios for "Slumdog Millionaire" and "Kite Runner" for gbp7.50. I decided to go for it because I truly wanted to watch Slumdog Millionaire. It was a nice small independent theatre and I am glad I treated myself for the movie night. Although I have seen "Kite Runner", I still teared...almost from beginning to end...lol....as for "Slumdog Millionaire", I really enjoyed it...

Life's short...work hard, play hard..:)

Paris...the city of love

I have just read a friend's article about everlasting love. It touches me dearly...as it reflects alot on my life. Love has always been a very simple yet a complicated aspect of life, which in many ways makes it wonderful.

Since we are on the topic of love, I would like to write about the city of love which I have just recently visited...PARIS. I managed to go for a 4 days budget trip to Paris recently. It was a full 4 days of walking..tiring but great! I visited most of the tourist attractions; Le Louvre, Musee D'Orsay, Arc de Triomphe, Versailles, Pompidou and a few more...but the one which I truly enjoyed was the visit to Sacre Couer, Montmartre. In my opinion, it is nicer than Notre Dame. I wouldn't be able to describe in words the feeling I felt when I was there, so I decided to immortalize the moment in a video form. Below is a short clip of the place, the crowd and the atmosphere while I was standing in front of Sacre Couer.

So, of course I went to the famous Eiffel Tower. Only went to the 2nd level as me and my friends thought we could climb up to the 3rd, but unfortunately, it was closed at the time we were there. The view from the top is amazing....I mean, I wish I was there with someone special. Cliche as it may sound but it does somehow gives you the feeling of being loved...Oh well...sighh

Anyway, February is scarily coming to an end. I don't know how it passes by..seriously. My everyday motto now is "Must do something every week..Anything...".This week, I went for a play at The New Players Theatre called "The Vagina Monologue". I went partly because a friend's friend were in it and I would like to meet her. Yeah, Vagina Monologue is all about vaginas...:p No hidden meanings whatsoever...It has got the word in almost every sentence. It talks about vaginas through the eyes of an old lady, a lesbian, a to-be mum, a normal female, a victim of rape and etc.

I am at a place where I need to make decisions and I really hate it. I hate making decisions...but I guess that's what living is all about.

On another note, my sis just told me this morning that one of my mum's friend's daughter passed away in a tragic accident. She's just 19 years old..It further reminds me of how short our life is and that it can be taken away from us anytime...

This blog entry is really fragmented. I write as how my brain works. I am that random...lol..

White Chinese New Year!!!

I was complaining about the weather the entire day since the time I stepped out from my house to work this morning..but at about 8pm, I stopped! It started snowing heavily when me and my friends were walking home...It was soooo beautiful...and all of a sudden, the freezing day out was all worth it!!

It's already the 7th day of CNY today but there's a huge celebration in Chinatown. My friends and I decided to join the fun..although we were warned that it's going to be crowded..Anyway, after work, I went at abt 2pm. Nothing much, some lion dance and according to Chew Ping, it's a baby compared to what we have in Malaysia. So, we went to Trafalgar Square to see some performances, as Kai Ling puts it, she heard some cheesy sounding Chinese songs while walking past earlier. It was well, nothing great...and due to the freezing weather, we (myself, Chew Ping, Kai Ling and Yean) decided to go for coffee..an excuse to be indoor really...ended up at Portrait Gallery's cafe. From the cafe, we get a very pretty view of London city. Spent some time there just chit chatting and getting defrosted...

So, Cheyenne called and told us that there will be some fireworks at abt 6pm at Leicester Square. We left the cafe when they were closing and made our way to the square. The fireworks were what I would call "fireworks war"..it just went on and on and on without much design whatsoever..but I really like how "chaotic" it is...hehe..at last, I saw some fireworks for the new year!!! since I missed the last new year countdown by being at the wrong bridge...

After the fireworks, we went to a small pub near Seven Dials for a drink and to warm up..It's a very nice place..Decided to leave at abt 8pm..and as we stepped out of the pub, we stood there and just admire the falling snow...today, 1st of February 2009 is officially my first day experiencing the continuous falling snow...It's so so wonderful..It's so romantic..I could fall in love with anyone at that moment..(yeah, I am pretty idealistic)..and for that reason, the journey home was simply breathtaking...

I cannot quite explain the feeling I feel by just watching the snow falling, so I decided to record it and share it with you guys and hopefully, you could feel what I am feeling right now as I am typing. It is so calming, beautiful and made you feel loved at the same time reflective..so serene and peaceful...

This is the view from my room window..I just sat there quietly..and enjoyed the feeling...

Okie, below is the video I took when I was typing this blog half way, and Chew Ping (my housemate) came down and said...wanna go out? We wanted to do this earlier but the snow kinda stopped..so, we thought, "Let's just go to sleep" but since she couldn't sleep, so yeah..why not? Let's do it!!!!! lol...

I wanted to post some pics of the CNY celebration but it's not that interesting anyway..maybe next entry...:)

New friends, new family...

I just came back from meeting two new friends (Mikey and Pandora)...one of them I have met twice, while the other one it was our first meeting. I am soooo happy that the dinner happened..though I didn't eat anything.

How do u know if you are going to get along with these new friends or not..you will know when it's your first meeting and all you did was lots of laughters! We said hie, and then started talking and talking and talking..it almost as if we have been friends for a long time. I didn't had to think of what I was going to say next cos I felt so comfortable to be myself..

To be alone in another country, one needs to build a new family. This family is made out of the new friendship you make with people you meet. I have been sooo blessed to have met so many people I can call family.

On another note, I worked on a surprise 60th birthday party event recently. The event was attended by 80 people, all gathered in a hall and when the birthday lady walked in with her husband, everyone sang the birthday song...It was wonderful...the feeling of friendship and love..The husband gave a speech about how they met and how amazing the wife is as a wife, mother and grandmother. I was so touched and nearly teared. I really hope one day, when I m old, I will still be surrounded by all my friends whom I love and who love me.

2009 so far...

I must say, I am quite proud of myself...lol..cos I have actually been upkeeping my resolutions in the past 2 weeks of 2009!

I went to Belgium on the 2nd of Jan..It was a truly spontaneous trip!! The idea was suggested by my friend Chew Ping on the 30th Dec..and we just went ahead and book it the next day! 3 cities in 3 days...walking around with maps in cities where we can't even pronounce the street names..just know there's lots of laans..and straat...:p

A quick run down of my trip..

Brussels

- Went to check out all the famous chocolatiers..yeah, I have educated myself in that way, the three top chocolate

brands are supposed to be Pierre Marcolini, Neuhaus and Wittamer.

- I have also eaten lots of Belgian waffles..Luikse waffle is nice..the one with sugar coating.

- Had french fries with sweet mayonaise and "andalouse"sauce

- Visited the Galleries Saint Hubert - world's first shopping mall.

- Walked the flea market at Place du jeu de Balle.

Antwerp

- lots of diamond shops..yeah, Antwerp is supposed to be one of the cities with most diamonds traded yearly..

However, the city really don't look rich at all.

- it's nothing much, a big shopping street.

Brugge

- A city full with tourists. I can't imagine myself being a local there, cos wherever u look, there are tourists...It's like a

Disneyland.

- Went to a church where there's a case containing a few drops of Jesus Christ's blood.

Here are some pics..

At the Grand Place/Grote Markt) at Brussels..

It's nicer at night...

Me at the Manneken Pis...Believe me, this is not just another peeing boy sculpture...lol...it was crowded by lots of tourists..I am not sure why it is so famous, but I think it's probably the first of all the peeing statues we all see today! It's really small too...

One of the cathedrals in Antwerp...Beautiful isn't it?

Me at the picturesque city of Brugge

Alright..5 more countries to go...:p

Year 2009!

A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR!! It's NEWWWW YEARRRRR!!! what happened to 2008?

I was complaining to a friend that I didn't do much in 2008...but she told me, " You did. You came to London!" Haha...yeah..She is right! I guess 2008 has been a significant year in that sense... A HUGE one!

Anyway, like always, year after year, whenever it's new year's season...I always want to write a list of new year's resolutions..and it's always postponed to a few weeks into the new year...I told myself tonight that I have to sit myself down and write the list no matter what...

So, this year, I would like to keep my list practical and achievable..hehe..(learning from past years)..here it is, with hope that I will be able to achieve all of it..or at least 75% of it..:p

RESOLUTIONS FOR 2009.

1. Work hard. Live Life.
2. Eat healthier.
3. Spend more time with my family friends.
4. Travel at least 6 countries.
5. Read minimum of 3 books.
6. Make at least 1 short film.
7. Write at least 1 feature script.
8. Paint 5 paintings.

Now that is out of the way...pheewwwww....Just have to keep the list in mind and work on it.

Fallen

The wind blows, I shiver,
Hold strong, my dear,
The whispers I hear,
It's too strong I told them,
I'm next, I fear.
.
Suddenly it shakes, I let go and fell,
In red, in tears,
Looking up at my peers,
I knew it's true,
Winter is already here.

Autumn

Green to red, I see everyday,
To and fro, on my way,
The journey I am on today.

A reflection of my thought,
A feeling, a fear I fought,
A question I've got,
Each and everyday I ask,
So quietly at the corner of my heart.

For now I can only pray,
With hope for a better day,
Every morning when I see the rays.

Finally...a place called home...

It's mid September already...within the last three months, I moved country, then stayed in 2 different houses and at last, I found a place where I can finally call "home". I just realised I have been so busy that it has been almost a month since my last entry. Well, I hope to be able to capture the events of one month as short as possible...:)

So, I celebrated my 1st birthday in London..not so much of a celebration actually, went for a simple dinner with Indri, Craig and Chew Ping the night before my birthday at an Indian restaurant. The next day I just slept in and went to Singapore Chilli Crab festival with Chew Ping and friends. Had a very expensive nyonya laksa and a really sweet cup of chendol!! The festival is not that great actually...but anyway, after that we went to have a walk at the markets nearby. One of them is the famous Spitafields market...It's quite interesting..although it's called a market, the prices are not market prices..sigh...but I found a very nice bag there which I bought for GBP17. :) A birthday gift to myself I guess...went to Carnaby St with Chew Ping, wanted to go for dinner at Cha Cha Moon but unfortunately, it wasn't opened. So, I decided to go home and rest. Yups...thats about all that I did for my birthday...

Well...I can't quite recall all the events chronologically...cos am really tired today...like any other day, to be honest. Maybe I shall put them in points form...

I went to the Notting Hill Fest as recommended by Pris even before I came to London. I went on Sunday, the 24th August if I remember correctly. It was quite disappointing as I expected alot more. There were food, loud music, lots of people dancing and some parades. I was so tempted to get the grilled corn but just couldn't bring myself to pay GBP1 for one cob. Imagine RM6.50 for ONE!!!

At work, I get to know more about the other partners at the store. I am happy that all the people I work with gets along well and they are all really friendly. It's a pretty robotic job otherwise...

I guess the highlight of the last 4 weeks is actually finding a house and getting the paperworks done within less than 2 weeks. It was really crazy...to finalise all the deposit and making sure we get to move in by the 8th of Sept, which we did. Never have I thought renting a house can be so difficult. The reference checks that have to be done...an agency has been hired to check all of the tenants background. They actually called my previous landlord in Malaysia to confirm my background!!! Well..all said and done, I have a HOME. :) I am really grateful to have found this place as it is strategically located, near the bus stop and tube with lots of shops nearby.

Anyway, pictures speak louder than words..so here are some pictures..

The markets...

At the Singapore Chilli Crab festival..

New friends...

Baking!

I only bake whenever I am inspired or feeling happy...I don't know why. So, recently, I felt like baking a chocolate cake (that's kinda like the only cake I never fail..hahah)...but I don't have the mixer or anything that is baking related per se. Decided to buy the materials, a whisk and the baking pans. One problem..I have never mix the batter manually before..but there's always the first time and I am going to give it a go!

I enjoyed baking...putting everything together and see the result at the end. Of course, when the result is good, there's a real satisfaction. I don't like cakes, so my ex-housemates were really lucky whenever I bake...:p Anyway, below are the pics of my most recent chocolate cake! I haven't bake for a LONNNGGGG time...more than 2 years or maybe 3...so long ago, I couldn't remember..that says something isn't it..:(

Little details..of everything...

I kinda stop counting..the number of weeks I have been in London. Time flies really fast here! Maybe 200% faster than in Malaysia...SERIOUSLY!

Anyway, I have noticed quite a number of things..little details of London..which I think it's pretty interesting..

1. Most girls wear flats here...probably cos everyone walks..and heels would have killed many!
2. Almost everyone has an earphone to an ipod or equivalent...walking or in the tube. Anywhere!
3. Umbrella is a NECESSITY!
4. Sun is moody...feels like 4 seasons in a day. Supposed to be summer, mind you!
5. London is full of people from everywhere else in the world but London...:p
6. One can go out without a single penny in the pocket but his Oyster card, and still enjoy the day!
7. Many many big and expensive cars..cars I used to only heard/never even heard of!
8. Alchoholic drinks are for ANYTIME of the day!
9. Public transport is PUNCTUAL!
10. There is never enough TIME! (a lot of it lost in transition)

I remember having a longer list whilst I was on the bus home...but just cannot remember now...:( am pretty tired to be honest. I have never felt so tired before, even when I am on a production. And this is just smile and take orders and make coffee....it's a very robotic job..sigh...I guess passion plays a big role!

For the 1st time..

Today, I went to Potters Field park for the last day of Malaysian Week in London. It started on the 30th July.

Anyway, I didn't really expect alot. I went with the hope of getting some malaysian food. There was a stage, with some dance performance and a 'fake' malay wedding. It was drizzling and I must say, I was quite impressed with the crowd that turned up for the event. And for the 1st time, I actually sat down with an umbrella beside a friend to see the performances. I mean, honestly, I have NEVER stopped by to see any of these stage performances in KL, but today, I actually did. I guess it takes you to be out of the country to see what you tend to overlook when you are at home.

After about 15 minutes, we went for the food. I paid 4.50 pound for a plate of chicken rendang and nasi briayani. It was decent, quite nice...in fact. There weren't enough chairs and tables, so we ended sitting on the grass with the bench as our table, holding an umbrella and enjoying our meals. It's the malaysian way....:p

Here are some pics I took. :)

CRUSH

He moves in nearer,
and closer,
his breath brushes through the air,
touches my neck like a feather,
sending my heart a pound and a gush,
standing still I was,
grasping hard for a breath of air.

I felt a rush,
heating up really fast,
from body to my cheek,
stopping it I tried,
like always I failed,
and there I was,
all red and blushed.

:p I don't know what's the sudden inspiration, guess maybe cos I am happy.

A month later...

Today marks exactly one month since I arrived in Heathrow...29th June didn't seem too long ago..as it is often said..time flies...

I felt a bit emotional thinking about it...in a good way...I miss my friends alot..friends whom I know I can always count upon..I am always grateful for having so many of them in my life....I read somewhere once, true friends are hard to come by, and if you could count the numbers with one hand, you are one of the luckiest people in the world...I can honestly say I have more than 5!...:)


So, one month..how did it pass by?...I am really thankful to have met Ed and Rich, I owe it to them for making my 'settling in' so smoothly...I am touched and feel really blessed that I met so many nice people in a city I thought I had no one...I am still job hunting, which is really stressful....but am not ready to give up trying..I told Ed yesterday about the stress, and he told me what a friend of his told him, "Job hunting is a full time job!" so, just stick with it....:)


I am making new friends at work..it's a good start...they are very nice people..friendly n helpful..:) n international too...:) So, yeah..I am HAPPY...today especially..:p


I didn't have time earlier to post some of the pics from a lil farewell party in conjunction with Jon's bday which I had before I left for the UK..and also the pics I took at the airport after one whole night of packing...Jon, Jen, Aaron and Jasmine sent me to the airport. I am really touched cos 3 of them kinda stayed up with me while I did my packing and Jasmine woke up early to join us to the airport..I had to leave for the airport at abt 6am.

2 more days and it's August! New month...looking forward to it...:)

BLUSHED!

So, for those of you who have known me long enough would know what the title means...sighhhhhh....

Well, I haven't blushed for quite some time now, and this is like a nightmare revisited...

On my first day of working with the established "green logo" coffee company, I experienced a very embarassing moment. Basically, it was my first day and I am learning from scratch how to make the different types of coffee. Then, towards the end of the day, the shift supervisor kinda tested me and said, "Please make me a half shot tall latte". Oh...and I was panicked and keep thinking, have I been thought or is my memory that bad? Then, he came closer to me and said, "Don't panic...and don't worry about making mistake..." I told him, "No, I am not..." (at this point, I can feel the 'heat' taking over my face) He said, "Yes, you are...You are RED!" The last line REALLY DOESN'T help at all.....Arghhhhhh!!

After that, for the rest of the shift, I kinda kept avoiding him..When he talked to me, I kept looking down, and as quickly as I can, I said OK ..and walked away....I hope he doesn't think I am rude though...

I WISH THERE'S A PILL OR SOMETHING WHICH CAN STOP BLUSHING!!!!!! oh..and I do think my store manager is cute...but u know, this 5 letter word is soooo going to "kill" me...

First 2 weeks and 2 days in London

Time flies...it has been 2 weeks and 2 days since the day I arrived in Heathrow..Let me try to recollect what I have seen and done in the previous weeks..

Heathrow was not as glamorous as I thought it would be..but BUSY ..YES! I was overwhelmed to a certain extend when I was approaching the immigration queue..wow...what a queue...and it was full of different kind of nationalities....I joined the "vibrant" crowd..hehe...I was greeted warmly by Edmond and Richard at the arrival gate..then Richard drove my luggage home while Edmond took the tube with me..cos it's a 2 seater car...

It was abt 6 pm when we got home. Richard went on preparing a nice dinner for all of us..It was a truly yummy dinner, had a roast chicken, some bacon wrapped asparagus baked in cheese and another bowl of vege. I had a wonderful time catching up with Edmond and getting to know Richard. :) Told Richard that he has to teach me how to cook the asparagus...:p

The next day, I took the tube to Leicester Sq to HSBC  in Chinatown, to set up my bank account. After that, I felt a bit tired, so instead of going around, I headed home and took a nap. I guess the jet lag was kicking in. At least, I had one important task accomplished!

The rest of the 2 weeks I spent the time getting in touch with all the friends I know who are in London and made appointments to meet up with them one-by-one. So, met up with Patrick, Indri, Fiona, Seok Kien, Amy and Chew Ping. It was a joy to see familiar faces..:) The second week was mostly spent on house hunting, making appointments and then look for the location to view the house. So, travelled a lil to different parts of London. I also experienced the "english" rainy n wet summer..the rain here is not like in Malaysia where it pours then it stops..it just drizzles the entire day..I was walking under the rain for like 4 to 5 hours with an umbrella on one of the days...I was wet from head to toe..:(

So, I haven't really done much touristy stuffs, maybe cos I have seen quite a bit during my previous trip to London. To sum it all, I just visited Regent & Oxford St., Hyde Park, V&A Museum, the British Museum, Portobello market, Covent Garden and SOHO. Here and there, not much cos of budget constraint as well. 

Here are some photos which I took when I remember taking out my camera..:p

Fulham Palace Road..the first scenery I saw when I was walking to the tube station on my way to Leicester SQ. It will be a daily scenery for me as I will be staying at Hammersmith.

 Meeting up with Patrick at Leicester Sq.

Look it's Malaysia!!! :) 

Patrick treated me some ice-cream..yummm..:)

At Covent Garden...

My first time at Hyde Park..would you believe this is in the centre of the big city?? 

Me and Fiona at Hyde Park

Ohhh....thats the size of the burger I had at Gourmet Burger Kitchen..I just couldn't finished it..had it at the branch in SOHO with Ed and Rich..

With Amy..Behind me is the Regent St or Oxford St...am not sure, both of them look alike to me...haha

That's all for now....will keep posting when I have extra time..dunno why time seems to fly real fast here...:(

A new journey ahead...

So, I have been extremely busy for the last two months...my month of April was basically spent on an editing job..a very stressful one...and right after that job, I spent my entire May trying to pack up my life into boxes...Yups..it's a HUGE task!! It's really tough when you are someone who buys alot for the future..:p sigh..I had so much trouble figuring out which are those that I need and which that I could live without...:( In a good way, this is a really good opportunity for me to clear up the mess in my life..unsorted photos and hdd..There was only one common comment amongst those who came to my house the last few weeks..."You have a lot of things!!" Yeah...I know...and I call them my important junks..:) hahaha

I will be in the UK end of this month...to start on a new chapter of my life...:) It will be a scary and yet an exciting journey...definitely...well, lets see what LIFE has in store for me!!

What If You Realise You Have A Crush on Someone?

That's a question that has been bothering me...so, really, what do u do when you realise you have a crush on a friend?

I have actually asked a few guy friends their opinion on it...and most of them told me that it's cool to let him know. It depends alot on how you tell him. Hmmm....to start with, I am very worried about losing the friendship. I have this feeling that one would distant himself if he doesn't feel the same way, and that would be really bad....sigh...

Anyway, I have another question which I often wonder...it's often you have silly crushes n then, nothing happens n life goes on...n you guys are still friends...would it be a good idea to let your friend knows that you used to have a crush on him? just wondering...hahah...